I don't feel ready to complete an Olympic Distance Triathlon. My heart has been there to do it...I have been training very hard for it...but ultimately, I am feeling like I am getting nothing out of training but a sore body. I know that is not true, but my workout times are not impressive and I still question if I can do all 3 events. I am completely blown after a 10k Run. I am completely blown after a 20 mile bike ride. How am I supposed to recover from a 25 mile bike ride in 1 minute and then start the run. It doesn't even seem like a fathomable goal at this point to gain comfort enough with the bike/run events to complete the race.
I am going to continue with it, but I am not feeling confident. I feel nervous, and I fear that I am going to have to battle some seriously negative thoughts throughout the rest of this process.
Every morning, I wake up sore and achy. While I am sore and achy, I take a look at my progress...My progress is also sore and achy. Each time I train, I know that I am growing. I am much stronger than I was 1 year ago, and I know that I am in better shape than a lot of people...but I still don't feel like I am up to the caliber that I should be for the Olympic Distance.
Although I am in excellent shape now, I still feel like I am not in the shape I need to be in to perform in 3 months. I am very afraid that I am going to bonk out 2/3 the way through the bike leg and end up so hungry and deficient that I can't really start the run.
I have yet to successfully complete a full ride, and my little body just can't handle distances like that on the bike. My toothpick legs burn through all of the stored energy in my body and I am left with the need to be constantly taking in calories, and in the right overlapping intervals that this 'engine' called my body never sees a sag on protein and nutrition intake. I need a carburetor, and I need to constantly be providing fuel.
Everybody seems to have a answer to my issues... "Just do X, Just do Y"...But these people don't know what they are talking about, and it is hard to trust them. In my training, it doesn't seem nearly as simple as people say...
I am nervous.
I just need to get that out on the table so that I can deal with it. I am nervous, and worried. I really have no idea what things are going to look like come race day. I know it is a long ways away...but you know what? It is on my mind.
I just hope that I have enough happy thoughts to get me through the ride. I think I am going to need every one of them that I can find.
I am going to continue with it, but I am not feeling confident. I feel nervous, and I fear that I am going to have to battle some seriously negative thoughts throughout the rest of this process.
Every morning, I wake up sore and achy. While I am sore and achy, I take a look at my progress...My progress is also sore and achy. Each time I train, I know that I am growing. I am much stronger than I was 1 year ago, and I know that I am in better shape than a lot of people...but I still don't feel like I am up to the caliber that I should be for the Olympic Distance.
Although I am in excellent shape now, I still feel like I am not in the shape I need to be in to perform in 3 months. I am very afraid that I am going to bonk out 2/3 the way through the bike leg and end up so hungry and deficient that I can't really start the run.
I have yet to successfully complete a full ride, and my little body just can't handle distances like that on the bike. My toothpick legs burn through all of the stored energy in my body and I am left with the need to be constantly taking in calories, and in the right overlapping intervals that this 'engine' called my body never sees a sag on protein and nutrition intake. I need a carburetor, and I need to constantly be providing fuel.
Everybody seems to have a answer to my issues... "Just do X, Just do Y"...But these people don't know what they are talking about, and it is hard to trust them. In my training, it doesn't seem nearly as simple as people say...
I am nervous.
I just need to get that out on the table so that I can deal with it. I am nervous, and worried. I really have no idea what things are going to look like come race day. I know it is a long ways away...but you know what? It is on my mind.
I just hope that I have enough happy thoughts to get me through the ride. I think I am going to need every one of them that I can find.
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